Deep, it goes so deep. The emotions I put them away and now I can’t even weep. I haven’t shed a tear. Are you surprised to hear? That after what you did, I barely even care. The emotions I took them, placed them in a bag. With a draw string tie and then threw them in the trash. There’s no changing the past so don’t regret your mistake. You made the choice that you wanted to make, and you sacrificed our family just to have things go your way. I don’t know how we got here, standing at the cross roads again. Everyone has a comment but honestly they don’t know shit. Only me, you, and the kids know what it really is. Everybody else just provided their two cents. If it looks crazy from the outside, that’s because it is crazy on the inside. I didn’t sign up for this crazy ride. But just like a roller coaster the strap buckle has been pulled down. I’m stuck, so this is my life now, until I die. It’s hard to believe that I don’t even miss you but that has to be a lie since I keep having these sniffles. Or maybe it’s just allergies. It’s sad too see something potentially beautiful be ruin by ones own greed. It’s not a Disney movie so there is no perfect ending. We keep running in circles until the lesson is learned. Then and only then can we achieved what you long yearned for.