Emotions run deep, I think of you constantly. Always on my mind you make me so damn happy. Publicly I never speak of you and me because things work better when they are kept privately. Cautiously I navigate through this life trying my best not to make mistakes or dwell on the thoughts and events of past days. You’re special to me and you get the upmost deserving treatment, more than I have done before. It’s different now because you are the one I truly care for. You are the one who I will always be there for. I pray for a great outcome but life is crazy and you don’t know what it has in store for you. You’re beautiful and incredible though you don’t like compliments, I only speak facts. This is just my observation. To say I’ve been waiting for someone like you is an over statement. Let’s build and grow this into something amazing. Pay the outsiders no attention because they only mention things that they don’t comprehend. They fail to see the potential. This is my attempt to write something displaying my emotions but more than words is what you deserve. So I’ll let my actions speak louder. I hope they are heard……..
As a single parent, I find comfort and tranquility when I am alone with my kids. So if I allow anyone into our lives best believe that person is special and important to me.
When you have a real strong connection with someone, their mere presence can make a bad day better.
What we got is deep and we don’t have to speak. Let’s keep it between us three….. Me, you, and we. When it’s real, it’s real and you can feel the connection. That moment when two souls meet and come together due to a spiritual attraction.
Last year the girl I was with looked over my fence like Wilson did every time he was talking to Tim. My emotional wall was built up over years until I finally let someone in. Over a couple months it all came down then to my surprise the relationship ran into a dead end. I saw it all coming like a bad accident and I didn’t bother to even get caught up in my emotions. Though I was kinda pissed about how she did it I said ‘Fuck this shit!’ and went on about my business. I was determine to build my wall up again so fuckin tired of dealing with females, I don’t know if I even want them as friends. Never again, I’m not allowing anyone to penetrate my emotional defense. Things never turn out for the good so what’s the point in even taking a chance. To die alone a single man sounds like a decent plan. I’m note sure if I will ever find romance.
…….. As I write this I am still optimistic and I can imagine one day meeting the perfect woman. One that gets who I am and allows me to be me. She will be the one I tear down the wall for to build a life with. She will be the one I will allow love to let in, until then, it’s just a dream in my head.
There is nothing more precious than giving someone your time and attention. It’s special and one of the greatest gifts you can give. Never give it unless you really care for the person who is receiving it.
As I sit and watch Sense8 on Netflix, one of the characters is an actor who is homosexual, but is afraid to reveal himself to the public. He was worried about how his image and career would change if he told the world. It not only makes me mad but also causes confusion in my brain as to why people care if someone is gay. Love is the greatest thing in the universe and across the multiverse. I believe love is what connects us all. So who a person chooses to love, have sex with, or spend their lives with should not matter to anyone. In 2017 if someone says that they are gay it should not be a shock to anyone. It really doesn’t fucking matter. Love who you want to love. Kiss who you want to kiss. Be happy with the person that makes you feel great. I have two kids and I could care less if they deciding to date the same sex. I am no one to determine what’s right or wrong. But what I can do is show empathy, support them, and try to understand.
I honestly don’t even want to use the term ‘gay’ anymore. Why do we have so many words that are used to classify and label individuals? I embrace the day that people no longer ask if someone is gay or not. But to be honest, I am one of those people that asks that question. Thus I need to make a change in myself first before I can see a change in the world. A man and another man kissing should be no different than a man and a woman kissing. Let go of the past and any ideologies that support hate and separation. We are in the 21st century and we are still discussing race and homosexuality. What the fuck is wrong with all of us?