I’m lonely inside. Up late at night with thoughts of suicide feeling hopelessness sitting next to me by my side. Depression is one of the best friends of mine. And I’m not afraid to speak of death because there’s no where you can hide. My thoughts run rapid like the flow of water from a broken dam. I apologize to all my family and friends but you must understand this is just the way that I am. No sympathy needed for me. As I speak the stress is release and I begin to feel free. No noose will ever be tied around my neck. I live for my kids so I’ll never die with regret.
Every woman that has ever dissed me, ironically, has been praying for a man like me….. 🤔🤔
While trying to date I’ve realized that women tend to always be concerned about my relationship with my ex wife/mother of my kids. But yet, no one ever asks about the relationship I have with my mother or my daughter. Why is that?
This is it, I solely exist to be your love interest in this movie. Our tale is a script written by the Universe itself. We were hand picked to live and love for all of eternity. The desire that burns in our eyes for each other is undeniable. The flame blazes high into the sky beyond the stratosphere into the vastness of space. Until it disappears and is no longer in sight. My pride I swallow, I bow down to my queen and cherish every moment of my life with her. Like a fiend aching for a fix, I need you in my life always. Now imagine if I actually had a girlfriend. This is they type of love she would receive. So I write this to express my emotions for the woman who has not yet come for me. To my unknown love, wherever you may be, I will find you one day. My love is everything… ❤️❤️❤️
I’m trying to find my life partner. Someone I can love for all of eternity. I’m trying to find something real, raw, pure, and true. I’m trying to find you. Where are you?
There are day where I am so tired I rather die so I can get all the rest I will ever need. Days that I am so tired, out of energy that I don’t leave my bedroom. It’s one thing to complain about being tired but it’s another to never feel what full rest is. To never know what it is like to have a ‘good night sleep’. For people living with Idiopathic Hypersomnia this is their life. People with IH can sleep 1 hour or 20 hours and never feel rested, rejuvenated, or energize. It is a rare neurological disorder affecting about 1% of the population. There is currently no cure and very little treatment options. Since the disorder main symptom is excessive daytime sleepiness, stimulants are proscribe to help with the issue. But most overtime get used to the drug so it is only a short term solution. Imagine being tired after doing just a single task in your day and being drained for the rest. With you body feeling like it needs to sleep in order to function, even though you just woke up four hours ago. Even as I type this I am struggling to maintain focus to finish.
This disorder is a lifelong crippling, disabling disease. The public awareness about it is extremely low and it makes sense for it to be. No one wants to hear about a disorder that makes people sleepy all day. The stigma that goes along with IH is that people are just lazy, unmotivated, are weak minded. But think of yourself when you’ve gone almost 24 hours without sleep. Now think about how you function… That is how a person with IH lives their life on a daily basis. The constant brain fog and autonomous behavior. The constant struggle to stay awake at work or at school. Life in this world is already hard enough without a neurological disorder weighing down on your life.
People with IH also suffer from abjectly and depression. Depression being a huge issue. Feeling hopeless and agitated all at the same time. To feel trapped in your own mind and a prisoner of your own body. Trying to forever escape the tired zone that is your existence. Of course very few can comprehend and understand. I’m not sure the world will ever accept IH as a serious disorder. But I write this for myself and the others out there who suffer from it to let them know that they are not alone. That there are others out there with it and who understand. We are all in this fight together. And we all take on this fight one day at a time…. Continue to fight your battle!
Depression is a bitch!!!