Last year the girl I was with looked over my fence like Wilson did every time he was talking to Tim.  My emotional wall was built up over years until I finally let someone in.  Over a couple months it all came down then to my surprise the relationship ran into a dead end.  I saw it all coming like a bad accident and I didn’t bother to even get caught up in my emotions.  Though I was kinda pissed about how she did it I said ‘Fuck this shit!’ and went on about my business.  I was determine to build my wall up again so fuckin tired of dealing with females, I don’t know if I even want them as friends.  Never again, I’m not allowing anyone to penetrate my emotional defense.  Things never turn out for the good so what’s the point in even taking a chance.  To die alone a single man sounds like a decent plan.  I’m note sure if I will ever find romance.  

……..  As I write this I am still optimistic and I can imagine one day meeting the perfect woman.  One that gets who I am and allows me to be me.  She will be the one I tear down the wall for to build a life with.  She will be the one I will allow love to let in, until then, it’s just a dream in my head.