I put my life on pause once I get a text or call from you. You are my all, my world revolves around you. Every second and minute my thoughts are dedicated to you. My undivided attention is precious but I give it all to you. A life where your name is not mention is something I find hard to comprehend. I plan to spend the rest of my existence basking in your beauty and wonderful presence. May the essence of my spirit be with you forever even after life stops existing. May we find each other on the other side of that light at the end of the tunnel. My love for you is eternal.
A relationship should only invole two people but what happens in that relationship effects everyone who cares about them. We all have to make our own chocies but the choices we make may effect the emotions of all the people we love.
I miss you! I mean of course I do. I think about all the time we spent, the late night conversations. I gave a piece of my heart to you. So why would I be a fool to deny the truth that I can’t go a minute without thinking about you. I hate this feeling but it’s only natural to miss the person that you cared for who is no longer there for you. Every single second was special. I treasure every moment but I need to let go and move on. This morning I woke up singing the song that reminds me of you. I look around and I realize everything reminds me of you. I still see your beautiful smile. Your pretty eyes and facial expressions are forever etched into my memory for all of eternity. I yearn to be in your presence while at the same time I wish to never see you again in my life. Contradicting emotions causing so much commotion in my mind and my soul. It’s so hard to let you go. Call me a love sick puppy, I feel like a dummy, for even thinking that we could of actually had something. Forever optimistic, always the hopeless romantic. The dreamer who dreamt you into existence. Now I just wish that you never existed so I wouldn’t feel the way I feel at this moment.
Thoughts fueled by love can either be a beautiful thing or drive you insane. Love is not rational, so how can love and the brain ever be on the same page?
Many people when faced with a situation between choosing love and making the logical decision, they choose to make the rational choice. But love is not a choice that can be made based on research, statistics, and evidence. You can not look at love an analyize it. No, the choice has to be made based on your intuitive emotions. It is a choice made by the heart.
Ever since we got close nothing has been the same. I’ve been feeling deep emotions that I thought I threw away. Sometimes I get jealous and my paranoid thoughts send me into a rage. But I keep it to myself locked up in a cage. Though I do apologize for that day I let it slip away. This is still crazy, I can’t believe I’m even feeling this way. A rarity it’s been that my heart has sent me into a whirlwind of different emotions. A bunch of shit I’m not used to dealing with. I’m usually calm and collected. Never see me be affected by anyone’s actions. I’ve kept that shit hidden. Lately I haven’t and I’ve been off my wagon. My mind’s been doing jumping jacks trying to jump over the madness. Master of my own reality but prisoner to my thoughts. I’m in control of my emotions until the minute I’m not. I’m fucked up and I got issues. Every outburst is clearly my fault. None of this would even happen if I would just accept what’s happening. My heart is afraid cause it doesn’t feel the same and my brain is going insane. I’m falling in love and I never wanted to feel like this again because love is pain.
Shout out to all my exes and any female I ever messed with. This is for all those women who did me wrong and disrespected me. I grew strong through every situation. I laughed in the face of rejection and battled through the Great Depression to come out on top. A better man than what you remember. I took so many chances, followed my heart and had different romances. None of that shit turned out to be long standing but I’ll keep playing the love game until I find The One. The past is the past. I leave that shit behind my ass, as I walk the path of the present on the road to the future. Contraditicing as I say this cause it sounds like I’m holding grudges but I’m just saying thank you to those you provided me with life lessons. I cherish every moment and grateful for all my blessings, appreciate all the minutes and seconds I spent with them.