I signed that contract and now it’s time to take my life back. In fact, let’s do the math, I gave you more than that. I gave you all the time that I should have spent with my kids. And to no one’s surprise, you don’t even give a shit. You fucked up my pay and destroyed the place where I stayed. After you had already sent me far away. You tell the world that I’m a hero but you and I know the truth. I’m just a kid that you use and abuse. I’m so sick and tired of all your rules. The confusing games you play when you pretend to care about me. But I’m just a name on a page that can easily be replaced. No memory or recollection will ever be made. Once I’m gone, I’m gone, until the day I hit the grave and you place that flag over my casket. And have those bastards play your music, then with a salute you send me away for good.
This house is empty, these walls aren’t a home when I’m alone, it’s just me. The tv is talking, speaking The Netflix language. Me and it are holding a conversation while the couch and my ass become best friends. I’m starting to think my daughter is right with her observation. Her father is more lonely than he’ll ever admit. This is my moment of weakness or am I just being vulnerable and showing the emotions I hold dear to my chest. With ever heart beat and every deep breath I contemplate will I spend the rest of my life like this. As I write this my eyes get heavy, I’m ready to fall asleep and hit the reset button. Then it’s back to the same shit again.
What happened to us? What happened to you? Things seemed so right, you were the love of my life. Then shit went wrong and now I can’t even stand the sight of you. I’m wondering was I the fool to even fall in love with you. I thought it was going to be us against the world, just us two! I loved you more than I could ever admit to. I thought we would be together forever. That’s what marriage is suppose to be. But it didn’t work out, no reason to place blame or bother with apologies. The past is the past, it’s just that, history. We both moved on but it still seems like a sad love song or story. So much love held and now it’s gone……
I don’t believe in God but I think you are a gift. Your presence is evidence that he exists because I swear that you are heaven sent. I asked the universe to send me the perfect person and then you appear so this can’t be a coincidence. We got way too much in common, it’s obvious that we belong together. A strong bond we formed in moments is solid and I pray that it will never be broken. When you laugh, I laugh. And you when cry, I’m sad. I feel what you feel, all the good and the bad. They say opposites attract but I don’t know believe in that. But whatever this is, I love this shit. We are the perfect match!
A novice in words with an intent to learn. With every poem I type the fire begins to burn more bright. In love with the rhyme, my emotions fuel the fire. Inspired by real life events but details will always remain a secret. You thought you knew what I meant and yet you still don’t get it. I have the spirit of a warrior and wisdom of a philosopher. Strong enough to never give up but wise enough to know when I am done. I’ve won every battle, defeated every enemy. My opponent doesn’t even know we are at war. I’m 10 steps ahead of everyone. I was born to see victory.
THIS IS MY POETRY……..
The resiliency inside me can be electrifying. It’s amazing how I bounce back from adversity. I’m truly outstanding. A man with the keen ability to always keep fighting. The universe’s got me fucked up if it thinks I’m gonna stay stuck in the muck. I can withstand the mud that’s on my shoes. It won’t slow me down, I’ll never loose. So tell the whole world to get out the way, I’m coming through. These are truthful words something you’re not used to hearing. A society living blindly and mindlessly. But not me, I use my one eye to see. As I rise to the top y’all can start off by calling me King. Eliminating anything and everything that may oppose me in an area of 100 square feet. Please take notice the proximity of my vicinity. View this as a warning. I’m warming up. Getting the arsenal ready because I have had enough of all the stupidity, ignorance, and debt slavery. I’m here to set the world free. I know you need me. The revolution is close to a retreat. Now it’s time to call in the calvary. Tell them we don’t want their money. We will never go hungry. We don’t need their assistance, go tell them to eat a dick, shit!! I’m tired of the politicians. I’m sick of the president. Who gives a fuck if he’s black, honestly he didn’t make a difference. Well, at least not positive. Their existence has proven to serve no real benefit. The reality of the situation is, we don’t need a government. Lets get rid of them!!
I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. I feel weak and my life is bleak. The ground beneath my feet is starting to shake, my faith is shrinking, and this solid concrete is beginning to feel like quick sand. I need a helping hand so I’m waiting for a man or woman to to come and save me from this life I live. But no one is around. All I see is the face of my own reflection looking back at me, telling me to rise up and be a better man. I can! I can! Raise my fist up to the sky in rejoice and celebrate the rebirth of who I am. The Phoenix died and came back alive to rise up from the ashes, no longer a mortal but a legend.